I Can't Change The World Until I Change Myself

Thoughts

You know when you have an ex lover who was less of a lover and more just a kindred soul and best friend?

Yeah well I had that. I gave up our relationship because I was never going to offer her what she was offering me. I still keep tabs on her and apparently her life is amazing. I’m sure she still can’t manage her money, I’m sure she still cries from time to time about bills, and I’m sure she’s not as far along as she wanted to be in this life. What I do know is she’s happy and that’s all that matters. I know that she has found a man that, from the looks of it, really cherishes her and that makes ME happy. I had never encountered a more genuine soul who wasn’t ignorant but had so much faith in people and the world around her. Cheers to you Miranda, I know we can’t have a friendship anymore because of insecurity issues it causes your current boyfriend and even though that’s not ok, it’s ok. Right now I feel like I’m looking at you, sitting at the other end of an airport terminal, and I caught your attention for a brief enough moment for our eyes to lock, our love to flutter, a smile to show, as a tear filled with happiness and no regret slides down our cheeks and we say our final goodbye and wish one another nothing but the best of luck in life.

It’s not weird, it’s just…

One of my closest friends told me yesterday that he’s gay and to be honest I dont know how I feel. I mean he’s the most loyal, honest and straight forward person I know. I genuinely admire everything about this kid and the fact that he likes penis doesn’t change any of those qualities. I won’t change the way I treat him or act around him. The fact that he’s gay doesn’t change a thing but the fact remains that if hearing him saying he’s gay has this type of impact on me I can’t imagine how much of an impact it had on him telling me and me grabbing that father fucker and giving him a big hug.

It’s not weird, it’s just…

One of my closest friends told me yesterday that he’s gay and to be honest I dont know how I feel. I mean he’s the most loyal, honest and straight forward person I know. I genuinely admire everything about this kid and the fact that he likes penis doesn’t change any of those qualities. I won’t change the way I treat him or act around him. The fact that he’s gay doesn’t change a thing but the fact remains that if hearing him saying he’s gay has this type of impact on me I can’t imagine how much of an impact it had on him telling me and me grabbing that father fucker and giving him a big hug.

I once

Broke up with someone whom I’m positive was “the one” because I have racist family members who I thought wouldn’t accept that my girlfriend was black.

God

I miss her smile
I miss her laugh
I miss her body
But I don’t miss her when she’s sad

I forgot

That NAS is the cure all for the feels epidemic

Hello?!?

Is there anyone out there that can save me?

If

This is how I’m going to feel for a while, death is in my future

Le Sigh

I don’t think I’ll ever be happy

I wanna love someone again! I want to really love someone. Give them my attention, my time, and all my effort. God, I’m not asking to be loved, I’m just asking for your help to love others. Grant me the grace I need, please and thank you. Amen